Procrastination

"I do not not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do." - Romans 7:15

or you might change it to this for chronic procrastinators like me...

I do not understand why I do NOT do it. For what I need to do I do not do but what I LIKE I do!

I don't like to write. It is a chore for me and I procrastinate doing it... I've justified the procrastination by saying" I'm not inspired", "I have more important things to do", "No one really reads it anyway" and "There is just too much to write about".

The last statement is where I am today. Since my last blog post I have spent two months in the USA and returned to Zambia where I have been for almost three months. That's five months with no update to my blog... please forgive me.

I actually looked up the definition of Procrastination (you know Google knows everything!)

"Procrastination refers to the counterproductive deferment of actions or tasks to a later time. Psychologists often cite such behavior as a mechanism for coping with the anxiety associated with starting or completing any task or decision."(Yes, this is me!!!) ... "Procrastination may result in stress, a sense of guilt and crisis, severe loss of personal productivity, as well as societal disapproval for not meeting responsibilities or commitments. These feelings combined may promote further procrastination. (Me again!!!) While it is regarded as normal for people to procrastinate to some degree, it becomes a problem when it impedes normal functioning. Chronic procrastination may be a sign of an underlying psychological disorder." (Ooops... back to therapy)

So, how I usually deal with procrastination is making a list... this blog is the last thing on the list... no excuses now. The second way I deal with it is by just doing something towards the goal... instant gratification... that's what I need! So, this short blog is my way of getting over the "hump".

I will end this rambling by saying that the next blogs will include:

Review of my time in the USA
Update on my return to Zambia
How God has blessed me personally

Now, that I have set some goals... be watchful!

To finish that Romans thought...

Now if I do what I do not like to do, it is no longer I who do it but a an item on the list that I must be checked off.